WARNING: I'm going to vent about breast feeding so if you don't want to hear about it, don't read this post! I'm sure the other mothers will understand though!
I had planned on breast feeding at least for several months - I really hadn't set any timeframe and was just going to go with what worked for Adam and I. BUT life being what it is, breast feeding has NOT been working. My milk finally came in, but I was in constant pain and Adam was obviously still not getting enough, so we were having to supplement anyway. So we decided that we are done with breast feeding and just going with formula after talking to the pediatrician. It'll take Adam a few days to adjust, but now at least he's getting enough to eat and once my milk dries up, I won't be in constant pain. If he was getting enough to eat, I think I could deal with the pain, but knowing it wasn't enough anyway, just made it not worth it to me. Plus I know he got my colostrum, which is really important to him as well as some breast milk. And since we've had to supplement since almost the beginning, he's already got bottles down. I think I was more of a pacifier to him than anything and as much as I love my son, my breasts are not a pacifier! Now I'm not a doctor or anything, but I think my problem stem from my breasts, which only grew a little bit and my nipples barely at all. He was just having to work too hard for not enough food. I definitely got milk in, but I think the issue was getting it out.
Adam was feeling better last night, but this morning he wasn't so hot. I think he just needs a few days to adjust to being on all formula. He threw up all over Ray this morning and took a huge dump (I've never seen that much poop in one diaper!) and was really fussy, but is sleeping now. I hope he sleeps for awhile because I think it'll help all around. When he doesn't feel good, he can't sleep and then gets overtired, but still can't sleep. You can't explain to a newborn that sleep heals.:) He really likes his bouncer, though, and it works good for getting him to relax. The hospital had us keeping his bassinet at an angle after he ate to aid in digestion and the bouncer gives much the same angle and I think that helps him out.
While I wanted to breast feed my baby, I'm looking on the bright side. This way, Ray can help with the nighttime feedings and I'll get a little more sleep (we are taking nighttime shifts). The main thing is that the baby gets enough to eat and is healthy.